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[vaccination]

Yeah.

[She could leave it there. But she sucks in a breath and carries on.]

I'd tell him I'm sorry. He's an asshole, but I... get it. I love him, so. I get it.

[Ellie is pretty sure Joel knew she loved him. Right? He had to, but hearing it would probably mean something to him. And she doesn't want to leave room for doubt about shit anymore.

He won't be around forever even if she's gotten him back.]

[dog_eat_dog]

[She thinks about this time last year, sitting on Ellie’s couch and folding laundry with him. It had hurt at the time just to think about, but now…]

I’m sure he’ll be happy to hear that.

[Amused:]

In a Joel way, but you know.

[vaccination]

Nah. I'm aiming for tears.

[She jokes, but. She heard it in his voice, out on the cold that night, and she can't imagine the emotions being any less with him back.]

[dog_eat_dog]

Milk it for all it's worth, kid.

[vaccination]

Yeah.

Might be sooner rather than later.

[dog_eat_dog]

Yeah?

[There's a concern there, that she'll chicken out. Hasn't the last six months been one extended bout of cowardice, a refusal to see him?

But Tess has grown soft, too.]

You ready for that?

[vaccination]

I think so. It's so stupid, but after the--[she's not going to say it, but she motions to her neck, even though it's audio because she's an idiot, but she's sure Tess knows what she's getting at.]

When I was on the mend, I just wanted him. To just... talk to, I guess.

[Like a little kid with a scraped knee, wanting her dad. Except it was a bit more dramatic than that.]

Might be a sign that I'm ready.

[dog_eat_dog]

[Tess feels her heart twist.]

Oh, sweetheart. I'm sorry he wasn't there.

[And that feels embarrassing, too sentimental for a kid that isn't hers, for a kid she's been awful to in turns but feels like she owes something to, but she lets it stand. It is how she feels.]

I'm glad you're ready. I hope it goes well.