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vaccination) wrote2020-07-25 10:45 pm
vaccination) wrote2020-07-25 10:45 pm
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AUDIO | VIDEO | TEXT | ACTION
AUDIO | VIDEO | TEXT | ACTION
I have a young, beautiful face and a deep well of life experience. The best of both worlds.
[Ellie will have to supply her own deeply sarcastic tone to get the full effect of this text, but Yunlan's confident she can handle it.]
[Ellie will have to supply her own deeply sarcastic tone to get the full effect of this text, but Yunlan's confident she can handle it.]
She does seem nice. In a weirdly authoritative way. "Told me. No more maintenance. Then made me a whole store in the Enclosure to destroy when I cried about it."
He slowly but neatly puts the two sets of notes together, playing through the whole phrase.
He slowly but neatly puts the two sets of notes together, playing through the whole phrase.
"You were upset about no more maintenance?"
She pauses on going on with the tune. That's news to her.
She pauses on going on with the tune. That's news to her.
"No. Yes. I don't know." There'd been a lot of things he felt in that moment, and it's hard to pick them apart. He frowns at the keys a little, and runs through the musical phrase he has again, still slow and careful, like he's focusing on that to keep from getting upset, now. "Sometimes tears just happen. And I don't really know why. It's like the punching thing. Except the only thing it hurts is my face."
When he puts it like that, he'd rather cry than punch things. Now if only he could nudge his stupid emotional reactions that way all the time.
When he puts it like that, he'd rather cry than punch things. Now if only he could nudge his stupid emotional reactions that way all the time.
"That's depressingly relatable," Ellie mutters, a thought she'd usually keep to herself, but she's been open already with him. He knows she's not a ball of sunshine.
"But crying is good, sometimes. Gotta let that shit out even if you don't know why."
"But crying is good, sometimes. Gotta let that shit out even if you don't know why."
He looks at her sidelong. Relatable? Him? Sounds fake. But he has to ask: "You don't always know why you cry, either?"
Only with the assholes. There are a lot of those.
And? I’m not going around picking fights for no reason.
That's taking it a little to too far, buddy.
Edited 2020-12-12 04:15 (UTC)
Too much, huh? Oh well!
Anyway, though, seriously: keeping your cool does get easier with practice, the older you get the more practice you get.
Anyway, though, seriously: keeping your cool does get easier with practice, the older you get the more practice you get.
Which is essentially admitting you're a pain in the ass. Most of the time.
[Ellie makes herself smile at that :) ]
[Ellie makes herself smile at that :) ]
Most of the time? Jeez, kid. Real uncharitable.
She shrugs. "Not always. I mean, beyond a vague shitty feeling that's either anger or sadness."
So I'm going to be a little old lady by the time I get my shit together?
Nothing!
[Tess has said enough.]
We're just having a conversation.
[Tess has said enough.]
We're just having a conversation.
That we are.
[A beat.]
It’s a pretty fine line to walk, being a warden who doesn’t put up with shit and one who acts like a jackass because it’s an option. You’ll figure it out eventually.
[A beat.]
It’s a pretty fine line to walk, being a warden who doesn’t put up with shit and one who acts like a jackass because it’s an option. You’ll figure it out eventually.
I've made it clear with all my temps that I'm not here to swing my warden dick around or whatever. I'm here for my deal, and they probably don't wanna be an inmate forever, so. Win-win.
[Now to just get a permanent match.]
[Now to just get a permanent match.]
[“Swing my warden dick around.” Oh my god, Ellie.]
Not forever, but a lot of them sure think it’s pointless.
Not forever, but a lot of them sure think it’s pointless.
I've figured getting them to realize it's not pointless is the first step.
Not much. B's the only one that's been even close to considering believing the shit I say.
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