[Her eyes go back to the floor, the fire, whatever isn't Jesse as she thinks, letting out a slow breath.]
If you were a complete asshole you would have lied about it. Just sayin'.
[No matter how much she thinks about it, it's not something she feels she can truly grasp. Being an addict. Getting a brief good feeling followed by so much pain--or death. It's easier to be angry at Stephanie for lying, and be pissed at her and everyone else for making Jesse feel so shitty that he lost that fight. They broke him.
But she's not too furious at Saul. He did something fairly decent. God fucking forbid if he announced Jesse died, especially like that. How many people would say good riddance? How many would say he deserved it? Just thinking about Sonya's reaction makes Ellie's teeth feel like they're going to crack on each other.]
I won't tell anyone. [A given.] Not even the people that know what happened.
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If you were a complete asshole you would have lied about it. Just sayin'.
[No matter how much she thinks about it, it's not something she feels she can truly grasp. Being an addict. Getting a brief good feeling followed by so much pain--or death. It's easier to be angry at Stephanie for lying, and be pissed at her and everyone else for making Jesse feel so shitty that he lost that fight. They broke him.
But she's not too furious at Saul. He did something fairly decent. God fucking forbid if he announced Jesse died, especially like that. How many people would say good riddance? How many would say he deserved it? Just thinking about Sonya's reaction makes Ellie's teeth feel like they're going to crack on each other.]
I won't tell anyone. [A given.] Not even the people that know what happened.
[Stephanie can go on thinking she's fooled her.]